| can you get away? |
[Sep. 25th, 2009|03:02 am] |
so i moved back to ohio 4 or 5 days ago. it happened so fast, i didn't even have time to think.
but here's what i will say about it: i feel okay. i feel like maybe this is meant to be. everything happens for a reason.
my purpose right now is in ohio. i need to be here. i'm not sure WHY, but i do. i'm getting a puppy and unpacking my things and getting to know my family again. i miss all of them!
chicago is home, in a way. i'm sure i'll be back. a year from now, maybe two, i won't spend forever in ohio.
but for now, it doesn't feel so bad (not to say it feels good either, but...) |
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[Jun. 14th, 2009|05:47 pm] |
it's time for a change, a big one.
learn to admit defeat. |
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| and i want you to know, i got my mind made up now. |
[Apr. 4th, 2009|03:51 pm] |
pictures from gaslight anthem/heartless bastards/the jordan years are up on flickr. http://www.flickr.com/photos/kaylawicker/. the show was great and i liked all three bands. i didn't have much time to actually enjoy the show, but i'd go see any of them again. i shot backstage for most of the show until gaslight, where i staked on a spot in front. overall, great time.
tonight i'm shooting brighton, MA at subt and tuesday the jordan years at reggies if i can get there in time! this week is hectic.
i have a few million photo projects due on wednesday and maroo gets in on friday. busy, busy, busy. |
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| a long time ago, we used to be friends. |
[Jan. 17th, 2009|05:06 pm] |
i kicked off 09 w/ a nose infection from my nose ring, an allergic to the meds i was taking for my nose infection, food poisoning (thanks pot pan!), a cold, and a migraine that lasted 6 days.
all of this happened in the span of 4 days.
today is the first day i have felt human and tonight i am going to LBC. probably a really terrible idea, but it's the last night LBC is open. why is it closing? :(
i am still convinced 09 will be a good year. 9 more days until the spring semester starts. i miss my photo classes. excited to get back into the darkroom. |
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| have you ever seen the things that go on outside? |
[Jan. 14th, 2009|04:27 am] |
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how have i barely been outside my apartment since friday? no classes until the 26th, no job. i guess i should be thankful i don't have to be out in the cold every day, but i'm just getting restless. |
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| 2008. |
[Dec. 30th, 2008|03:09 am] |
was so weird. some of the best moments of my life this year. some of the hardest. i feel like i've done a lot of learning/growing up. i feel like i have so much more to do.
i am ready for 2009. i don't make new years resolutions, but i have a few things i plan to do better. |
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| all i wanna do is love everyone. |
[Dec. 28th, 2008|08:16 am] |
ive been posting a lot to my tumblr, but for some reason, i can't seem to abandon this livejournal.
i haven't slept a full night since december 23rd. no clue why, but it's 9:16am in columbus, ohio and i have yet to go to sleep.
i've only been home for 4 days and i'm ready to be back in chicago. home is a weird word. i am so fucking tired i'm probably making no sense. the only sleep i've gotten has been in naps, during the day, in intervals of 2 to 3 hours.
photographyserved.com is my new favorite website. can't stop refreshing. check it out for sure.
christmas was weird. it didn't really feel like christmas at all. i got all money from my mom, an ipod from my aunt, boots from my bro and clothes/money from my dad. in return, i didn't buy anyone anything. weak.
my eyes are closing on me, but i know the second i lie down, i'll be wide awake again. so not on. my mom is asking me to go to church with her in a few hours. i'd rather be anywhere else. i should probably go anyway.
jeff buckley is currently (always) my favorite. he's been my favorite since i was 12, but i feel like i'm re-discovering him all over again. grace on repeat. |
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| lilac wine, i feel unsteady. |
[Dec. 21st, 2008|09:57 pm] |
i am feeling weird tonight and here are the things that i wish the world knew:
i've wanted to move to chicago since my 9th grade class trip.
moving to chicago wasn't for anyone but myself.
moving in with chelle was easy, awesome, good. she has lived in this apartment for 3 years, she wanted a roommate.
i can't explain why i still care, but i do. it continues to bother me that people would actually believe i moved to the city for a boy in a band i legit have never talked to, don't care about, wouldn't stop if i saw.
let's be honest. i'm not the one forking over thousands of dollars to said boy's band, traveling hundreds of miles to see them, talking to every dude in the band after every show.
i go for the music.
tonight i didn't even go. i felt uncomfortable. so thank you for effectively ruining a local band that i enjoy.
karma, i have to believe in it. |
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[Dec. 13th, 2008|06:01 pm] |
last night i got my nose pierced. it was so random. lauren and i were talking on aim and i joked about how i wanted it done and the next thing i know, we're at insight studios and my nose has a ring in it.
bob jones from insight studios is def. the best piercer in the city. he did my lip & nose. go see him if you need a piercing.
this weekend has been really chill. which is cool, because next weekend should be crazy. people coming into the city for bday celebrations! should be fun. i can't believe it's december. i can't believe my bday is actually in 7 days. time flies.
i'm glad the semester is over & i'm trying really hard to stay positive. i love my friends and my life and i'm happy. rumors circulating about me bother me, but i try not to focus on it. as long as i know they're not true? that's the mindset i'm trying to stay in, otherwise, it'll drive me crazy. |
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[Dec. 10th, 2008|11:24 pm] |
i think i just spent 12 hours in the darkroom. no, i really did. i'm a mixture of exhausted/relieved/proud/exicted.
i love my major. |
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| and my head keeps spinnin' |
[Nov. 20th, 2008|10:43 pm] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | welcome to heartbreak - kanye | ] |
today was terrible.
or maybe just too long and too cold.
the next few weeks are going to be so fucking busy. not even looking forward to it.
in unrelated news, who wants to adopt me for thanksgiving? plane tickets home are 400 dollars. no thanks. |
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[Nov. 18th, 2008|02:31 am] |
i miss you a lot.
which is stupid, because i never really had you, right? |
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| mess of words. |
[Nov. 16th, 2008|12:05 am] |
tonight was a good night. chelle, lauren and i went to a show. the show ended @ 6ish, so we came home and started drinking.
i am pretty sober at the moment, but i'm not sure how. i think i am developing some tolerance. crazy, huh? after a few drinks, we decided watching titanic was a brilliant idea. we re-casted the entire movie and tried not to cry at the end. we updated our twitter a lot, too. sometimes the simplest of nights are the best. |
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| just because i'm losing doesn't mean i'm lost |
[Nov. 4th, 2008|02:39 pm] |
went to vote this morning. chelle and i literally did not wait in line at all. it was great.
getting ready and then heading downtown for the obama rally in grant park. we have tickets! i'm excited to be a part of this. |
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| i love her 'cause she got her own. |
[Nov. 3rd, 2008|04:08 pm] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | she got her own - ne-yo/fab/jamie foxx | ] |
this week is already crazy. tomorrow is going to be insane. 1 million people expected to be in grant park. they canceled classes tomorrow & everything. jen is supposed to be coming to chicago (!) and we're going to head to silver cloud for dinner before making our way downtown for the obama rally. honestly, i am so nervous for tomorrow. if mccain becomes my president, i am legit moving to canada with maroo.
wednesday i'm going to be in the darkroom all day then going out w/ the crew that night. thursday jen is back in chicago, so that should be fun. this weekend is going to be crazy. saturday is girl talk @ congress. none stop dance party. sunday is jack's mannequin. excited.
halloween weekend reminded me that things are good and i'm lucky to have my friends. i had a lot of fun, i'm thankful to be where i am. |
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| we’re so trendy we can’t even escape ourselves. |
[Oct. 30th, 2008|05:22 pm] |
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| | robocop - kanye west | ] |
i am so busy & stressed right now. working on two huge photo projects that i'm worried about not pulling off. also, trying to find a photographer to write a report on/possibly interview is not easy. why do they assign these things?
my first photo project is called "milwaukee from damen to division" and it's basically just that. i'm shooting milwaukee ave every day for a week and seeing the changes. my second is called "chains" and it's basically a theatrical photo project of a little girl dying in the city. it's going to take so much work to pull this off. in the midst of all of that, i have my last mid-term today and i am completely unprepared for it. ask me why i'm on livejournal instead of studying.
also worrying about the little things. concerned about friends, family, enemies, people who dislike me, their reasons, my behavior. i don't even know why i care, but i do. very sick of negative energy, but i have to say i've been carrying it too.
these are just a few of the things on my mind. mostly, i wish i could write exactly what i'm feeling right now instead of the "on-the-surface" version of my week/life/feelings. will it always be like this? |
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| we don't love anymore. |
[Oct. 28th, 2008|12:10 am] |
in such a weird mood & it all goes back to one person. it's stupid how you can be in such a great mood until you start remembering why you weren't in the first place. this year was supposed to be different, but a lot of things are the same. i want to re-do a lot of it. the cold weather is currently matching my mood. i think i did it all wrong. & to you, i am sorry.
leaks from 808s and heartbreak are on repeat. |
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[Oct. 27th, 2008|02:18 pm] |
so busy! i have two big projects due in the next week and a mid-term i need to be studying for. college is hard yo.
i can't believe halloween is this friday and we're almost into november. time is flying. this weekend was awesome. spent most of it with my dad, but on sunday lauren, chelle and i carved pumpkins and picked up ridiculous halloween customes. my wig is the best thing in the world. my pumpkin? not so much. it sort of looks like an 8 year old carved it.
anyway, tonight lauren and i are going out. i feel like i've been sober for months, but really it's only been 2 weeks. wednesday night we're going out for karaoke and friday we're going to every bar in lakeview? i don't know how i'm going to make it through this week. so busy/tired and i can already feel the hangovers.
also, i've sort of been looking for a job. i think it's maybe a good idea to have one, ha. |
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[Oct. 25th, 2008|07:42 pm] |
my dad is in town, which is pretty cool. we went to silver cloud for dinner. i continue to be obsessed with their veggie burger. anyway. seeing my dad has been great. i haven't seen him in almost 4 months and we are currently watching the osu football game. memories.
not much is going on. i've busy w/ school. lots of photo projects, lots of time in the darkroom. taking it day by day. things are good. |
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| bitches ain't shit but hoes and tricks |
[Oct. 19th, 2008|01:22 am] |
free jameson for two hours seems like a good idea, but it really just gives you a terrible hangover and a ridiculously long call log that you don't remember.
i think i called everyone in my phone book wednesday night. and i have the bruise the size of my life from falling over something - a keyboard? - i don't even remember.
i wish i were kidding. |
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